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A Thought

As time seems to slow down a little bit in Autumn, I find myself thinking more. I am thinking about God, His purpose for me; my family and what I should be doing more with them; School-I miss it so badly {learning} and of course {at times} teaching too; The new baby; The youth and all that they have to struggle through every day; What I want to be when I grow up; Where I'll be in two or three years and what I'll be doing; People who need help in my ward and just around me...

Wes used to tell me to "Stop Thinking!" because I'd start worrying about things and most of the time you just can't have control of most of the things you think about...but I think it's good for the mind and soul to think often. I have missed it. I have missed deep pondering because I have let myself get too busy and then fall out of the habit of truly thinking about things that matter.

I don't know...maybe I am causing more trouble for myself....But doesn't everyone need to THINK?!

New Baby

I'm just putting up random pictures: I do NOT know the Gender of my baby!
I just need to say this and I'm not sure exactly how it will come out: but I am SO STINKING EXCITED TO HAVE A NEW BABY! I had a panic attack a few weeks ago about going through labor and delivery again. That required some strong mental muscle to force myself to deal. But then I woke up the next morning with butterflies in my tummy and a huge smile on my face. I can't wait for this new little spirit to join our family and rock our world!

My grandma Brewer was in town the other night and she said our family prayer one night. She prayed for all of the grandkids who were pregnant {there are four of us, due around the same time!}, and for the special babies we were carrying. She prayed specifically that we would be blessed because we were making the decision to bring Heavenly Father's children into good homes with loving parents, and the gospel of Jesus Christ in their lives. I was really touched by her humble and sincere prayer and it got me thinking about my role as a mother on a much deeper level than I have in a while. Maybe it was because of the difficulties and challenges I had while carrying and delivering Cache, but I will never take the miracle of life for granted again. It truly is a miracle and a blessing that we have no control over. God is a wonderful and loving Father to allow us to be parents and to allow us children who are so prepared and strong when they come here.

I know God gives us different challenges and trials and we all make choices about life and children and they are quite personal and quite right for us if we are listening. I just want to say though that I am so happy for the challenges children bring. They teach me how to act more like Him and show me how to love more purely. They make me laugh out loud {like when Cache floods the kitchen and then almost cracks his head open slipping in the water} and tear up and cry, but they are so wonderful. I am so thankful for new babies and the family that I am creating now!